The enthusiasm continues..
Apparently yesterday wasn't enough to blabber my heart out, so it continues. Lets see.. Today.. Went uni to submit an assignment. LOL after so long the tutor doesn't even recognize me :P Coincidentally one of my group mates into soccer. Well well, might actually get back into it. Haha. Feeling all old and sturdy now. Wonder if i could pick up the old skills and stamina. That's a good question. Will wait and see tsk tsk.
As said yest, had a night out around 4th April maybe with the pretty chick in the picture. Yep. She's a high school mate back in the days. She's doing her psychology/mass comm degree in Monash. Big time uni. Hahaha. Seems to be doing pretty well. And honestly, this was the first time I actually went out with her. And talk as well. It's weird how she seems so unapproachable on the outside, yet friendly when she opens up. She's got quite alot of topics to talk about and does show quite a tad of intellectual and intelligence while she speaks. Good luck to the mate tryna wife her. She's one tough nut to crack. Hahaha. Had good old chat and dinner, then off to Southbank for drinks. Southbank is like our tourist place. Also always provides the happening atmosphere to drink as well. Then had another long chat. Then around midnight her bestie sent her home. It was a good day indeed. Had fun. Hopefully there would be more of these occasions in the future hahaha. And yes she's back in Melb now. Probably she lost count on how many places she's been to. All the best to her studies life love and work.
Alright, moving on back to MY life. Got a little carried away there. Well, sad to know that another two of our precious workmates would be leaving soon. So much bloody drama caused. Not even joking LOL Sometimes it make you wonder how quick time flies and how people come and go continuously. Sadly, this is how life revolves and probably hope for the best and maybe, have better and fun work mates in the future. They will be missed. Well i miss them anyways. Haha. Without all these people that came into my life, i wouldn't be who i am today. If one day i actually succeed, *fingers crossed* all these people that i came across are the reason and stepping stone for it. I sincerely thank them for teaching me so much and hope they would be successful in their own career regardless where they are and what they do.
Okay. Time for some emo-nemo session of the day. Today she texted me. But it wasnt regarding how i was nor was she looking for a conversation. Apparently, all she cared about was if i talked to the guy she liked. Funny thing is, she never even told me who that guy was. So she assumed i went all psychic and sherlock and decided to talk to him. Why didn't i thought of that hahaha. But yeah. Then once i said i didn't, she disappeared again. As usual. I don't know. It hurts by the day knowing the fact that she doesn't bother nor care about me, yet told me so much about herself. Maybe i'm just a nice guy. Maybe i'm just MR FRIENDZONED. Maybe what girls need aren't boyfriends, but friends they could assume would be their friend now and forever and just, expect to like an entirely different guy that doesn't appreciate nor understand her.
Ironically, that's how life is lived. Not to brag or what not, i do have admirers too :P But like, girls that like me aren't exactly my type. That's not even the biggest problem. The problem is they don't understand nor know shit about me. So technically how are you supposed to be with someone just because you FEEL like you like them and know NOTHING about them. Even if you do know them slightly, just trying that much would mean he/her isn't important enough for you to put a bigger effort to understand them. This is why life sucks. This is why love sucks. This is why guys who understand the bitches gets friendzoned when the guy that looks good or adorable would be the girls fav.
Girls always say that "Oh i don't like him for his looks. I just love the way he makes me smile and treats me right." But hey lady, just because he knows how to make you smile doesn't mean you can make him smile as well. And when time goes by, eventually he would get bored of your one-sided happiness and move on. Then you cry about why doesn't he love me anymore whatnot. Grow up will ya. If u continuously just pick the guy that looks good and fun but doesn't actually understand you, it's gonna be like trying to make PSY do gangnam style during sex. It's awkward. It wouldn't last. Nor would it make you happy. Try to make the effort to understand each other and realise what actually has gone wrong and how to fix it. Risk it for the biscuit a wise man once told me. Nothing comes for free. You don't walk down the street hoping to pick up a free winning lottery ticket on the floor. The least you have to do is buy it. If lucky you would strike and your dreams would come true. If you don't, that's it. You don't EXPECT to win whenever you buy it. It's like love. You have to keep trying until you find the right one. Even that takes HEAPS, i mean HEAPS of effort. Then again, people these days are just looking for some fun. So forget what i just said..
Anyways, it's getting late and i'm supposed to wake up for another morning shift 2moz. Crazy work hours this week. I gotta say i love money and work but i really don't have the energy and the motivation to do that much of work. Really gotta start putting more effort into my studies as well. Although pass is all i've been aiming for, but honestly i can do better. I should do better goddammit. Hopefully i could find that brink of light that would carry me forward. Sometimes when you have to put up with so much shit, you just get fucking tired of all the bullshit and just wanna lie down and sleep. That's why when they say you have to put an effort, you actually really do. Especially if you're not in one of the best conditions. Work and study. Haha. Oh well, live and let live. Maybe i'd succeed someday, maybe not. But if i never try, i never would. GO HARD OR GO HOME. Meh. Alright peace out. May the night be pleasant :))
As said yest, had a night out around 4th April maybe with the pretty chick in the picture. Yep. She's a high school mate back in the days. She's doing her psychology/mass comm degree in Monash. Big time uni. Hahaha. Seems to be doing pretty well. And honestly, this was the first time I actually went out with her. And talk as well. It's weird how she seems so unapproachable on the outside, yet friendly when she opens up. She's got quite alot of topics to talk about and does show quite a tad of intellectual and intelligence while she speaks. Good luck to the mate tryna wife her. She's one tough nut to crack. Hahaha. Had good old chat and dinner, then off to Southbank for drinks. Southbank is like our tourist place. Also always provides the happening atmosphere to drink as well. Then had another long chat. Then around midnight her bestie sent her home. It was a good day indeed. Had fun. Hopefully there would be more of these occasions in the future hahaha. And yes she's back in Melb now. Probably she lost count on how many places she's been to. All the best to her studies life love and work.
Alright, moving on back to MY life. Got a little carried away there. Well, sad to know that another two of our precious workmates would be leaving soon. So much bloody drama caused. Not even joking LOL Sometimes it make you wonder how quick time flies and how people come and go continuously. Sadly, this is how life revolves and probably hope for the best and maybe, have better and fun work mates in the future. They will be missed. Well i miss them anyways. Haha. Without all these people that came into my life, i wouldn't be who i am today. If one day i actually succeed, *fingers crossed* all these people that i came across are the reason and stepping stone for it. I sincerely thank them for teaching me so much and hope they would be successful in their own career regardless where they are and what they do.
Okay. Time for some emo-nemo session of the day. Today she texted me. But it wasnt regarding how i was nor was she looking for a conversation. Apparently, all she cared about was if i talked to the guy she liked. Funny thing is, she never even told me who that guy was. So she assumed i went all psychic and sherlock and decided to talk to him. Why didn't i thought of that hahaha. But yeah. Then once i said i didn't, she disappeared again. As usual. I don't know. It hurts by the day knowing the fact that she doesn't bother nor care about me, yet told me so much about herself. Maybe i'm just a nice guy. Maybe i'm just MR FRIENDZONED. Maybe what girls need aren't boyfriends, but friends they could assume would be their friend now and forever and just, expect to like an entirely different guy that doesn't appreciate nor understand her.
Ironically, that's how life is lived. Not to brag or what not, i do have admirers too :P But like, girls that like me aren't exactly my type. That's not even the biggest problem. The problem is they don't understand nor know shit about me. So technically how are you supposed to be with someone just because you FEEL like you like them and know NOTHING about them. Even if you do know them slightly, just trying that much would mean he/her isn't important enough for you to put a bigger effort to understand them. This is why life sucks. This is why love sucks. This is why guys who understand the bitches gets friendzoned when the guy that looks good or adorable would be the girls fav.
Girls always say that "Oh i don't like him for his looks. I just love the way he makes me smile and treats me right." But hey lady, just because he knows how to make you smile doesn't mean you can make him smile as well. And when time goes by, eventually he would get bored of your one-sided happiness and move on. Then you cry about why doesn't he love me anymore whatnot. Grow up will ya. If u continuously just pick the guy that looks good and fun but doesn't actually understand you, it's gonna be like trying to make PSY do gangnam style during sex. It's awkward. It wouldn't last. Nor would it make you happy. Try to make the effort to understand each other and realise what actually has gone wrong and how to fix it. Risk it for the biscuit a wise man once told me. Nothing comes for free. You don't walk down the street hoping to pick up a free winning lottery ticket on the floor. The least you have to do is buy it. If lucky you would strike and your dreams would come true. If you don't, that's it. You don't EXPECT to win whenever you buy it. It's like love. You have to keep trying until you find the right one. Even that takes HEAPS, i mean HEAPS of effort. Then again, people these days are just looking for some fun. So forget what i just said..
Anyways, it's getting late and i'm supposed to wake up for another morning shift 2moz. Crazy work hours this week. I gotta say i love money and work but i really don't have the energy and the motivation to do that much of work. Really gotta start putting more effort into my studies as well. Although pass is all i've been aiming for, but honestly i can do better. I should do better goddammit. Hopefully i could find that brink of light that would carry me forward. Sometimes when you have to put up with so much shit, you just get fucking tired of all the bullshit and just wanna lie down and sleep. That's why when they say you have to put an effort, you actually really do. Especially if you're not in one of the best conditions. Work and study. Haha. Oh well, live and let live. Maybe i'd succeed someday, maybe not. But if i never try, i never would. GO HARD OR GO HOME. Meh. Alright peace out. May the night be pleasant :))
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